The Waiting Process...

So, I've discovered recently that the hardest part of pregnancy is the last couple of weeks where you spend everyday waiting and wondering when your baby is going to come. I think it's driving me a little crazy. My mom even came into town thinking for sure the baby was coming soon, but that was day before yesterday and still no baby. It turns out I had some virus or something. Let's just say there's been lots of cramping and lots of quick trips to the bathroom. I'm starting to feel a little better today, but still no baby. I think the most concerning thing is that she won't come this week when my mom is here, and then she'll have to leave, and then I'll have her next week without my mom here or Cor's mom. (Cor's parents will be gone all of next week.) This shouldn't be troublesome, I know lots of people do it without anyone to help, but I was just looking forward to having the help. I'll admit I'm a little scared. I've never had a baby before. But I'll be okay. And next week is Cor's spring break, so he'll be home the whole time, and that's comforting. Anyway, if you were wondering what's new...nothing. Just waiting. And everything will be fine.

Our Hofman House Heartbreak...

So... we recently came to a conclusion about the whole stay at home with baby dilemma. Pretty much, if we buy our house, yes, the one we've put all that time and heart into, I would have to be working full time, and so would Cor. If not full time, pretty darn close. So, after much prayer and contemplation...and tears...we decided that the most important thing to us is our family, and especially the little lady who will be coming into our home. Plus, we'd like to be able to finish school sometime in the near future. If we choose to buy the house, we'd be working a lot more and that would seriously cut into school and family time. And, we just know it's most important for Hadlee to be home with mommy most of the time. It was a super hard decision to come to. We're now in the process of apartment hunting. We need something more family ready. Preferably two or three rooms with W/D hookups and, if at all possible, the dishwasher I dreamed of and still want so badly. The house is getting so nice too. It makes me cry every time I go and look at it. I'll be a big mess when the painting and carpet and all those good things are done. Mostly when I walk into the room I always pictured as Hadlee's knowing it won't be. It's very, very sad. After it's finished, Cor's parents will sell our beautiful, wonderful house. We'll be able to put a little in savings then for future emergencies, or even a future down payment. Someday, when we're done with school and making more money, we'll buy another house. Maybe we'll like it just as much, or even more. I hope so. For now, we're making a better choice for our little girl and our family. Unless, of course, any of you out there in blog land want to donate a huge down payment to the Hofman House fund so we can still move into the house. Seeings how that is most likely NEVER going to happen, we're resigned to the fact that we've made one of those famous adult decisions. It stinks being grown up sometimes. But life is still good, and soon our baby girl will be here and it will be even better.