Hadlee Update

Hadlee is doing great. She eats A LOT! And consequently urps up ALL THE TIME! And it's projectile. It's nasty. Still, I think she's adorable. Perhaps only a mother can be burped up on again and again and still think her baby is perfect. Cor finished his finals today, and thusly his semester. That was a relief. We were able to work it out so that in the fall I can go back to school full time but still be home. I just have class at times when Cor is home so Hadlee doesn't have to be in daycare. It's a blessing it worked out. I only have class one day a week during the day. I have two night classes (three nights a week) and an independent study (hopefully.) It worked out so perfectly. I was so happy. Night classes stink, but I'm willing to do it in order to get to stay home and not put Hadlee in daycare. The coolest part was that my adviser in my department told me that I should be able to graduate a year from now. YAY!!! I kind of wish I was graduating this semester with a lot of my friends, but taking time of to have Hadlee was totally worth it. If I could have all of college to do over, I would have taken more credits other semesters and been more serious about everything. I wouldn't have taken semester's off. Then again, maybe I wouldn't change anything because life happened in a way to get me here, and I'm so happy. Anyway, summer is about to begin! We're planning trips to the coast to stay with my grandparents and to Lake Powell for Hadlee and I to meet a lot of Cor's family. Both trips sound like fun, but I'm a little weary of traveling extended distances with a baby. Especially since my baby is already a home body. She gets fussy if she's away from the house for even a couple of hours. Yikes. Oh well, we'll just hope for the best. She's a month old already! I can't even believe. Watching her grow is so exciting and makes me so happy, but at the same time breaks my heart. Time just goes by too fast and I'm so scared of losing moments with my precious baby. Sometimes when I'm so tired and frustrated, I feel so guilty for thinking, I can't wait until she's big enough to sleep eight hours, or, I can't wait until I'm done breastfeeding. I know I'll be so sad, and excited, when we reach those points. Right now I just want to stay in this moment with my tiny girl forever. But I know I'll love the moments to come. Man, do I love her. I never imagined how much love I would have. It's so hard getting babies here, and so hard sometimes once they get here, but every time I hold her I think that she's so worth it. I never truly understood it when everyone said it before I had her. Now I understand. I think I love Cor even more now because I see how much he loves our baby girl. Life is good. So this is somewhat cheesy but I cried when my sister in law sent me these lyrics right after I had Hadlee... I Saw God Today - George Strait Just walked down the street to the coffee shop Had to take a break I'd been by her side for 18 hours straight Saw a flower growin' in the middle of the sidewalk Pushin' up through the concrete Like it was planted right there for me to see The flashin' lights The honkin' horns All seemed to fade away In the shadow of that hospital at 5:08 I saw God today I've been to church I've read the book I know he's here But I don't look Near as often as I should Yeah, I know I should His fingerprints are everywhere I just slowed down to stop and stare Opened my eyes and man I swear I saw God today Saw a couple walkin' by they were holdin' hands Man she had that glow Yeah I couldn't help but notice she was startin' to show Stood there for a minute takin' in the sky Lost in that sunset Splash of amber melted in the shades of red I've been to church I've read the book I know he's here But I don't look Near as often as I should Yeah, I know I should His fingerprints are everywhere I just slowed down to stop and stare Opened my eyes and man I swear I saw God today Got my face pressed up against the nursery glass She's sleepin' like a rock My name on her wrist Wearin' tiny pink socks She's got my nose, she's got her mama's eyes My brand new baby girl She's a miracle I saw God today